Sharing this powerful testimony from one participant:
”I’m keeping up, but I’m keeping quiet. I’ve been arguing with God the last 2 weeks justifying why I can’t fast from the things he is laying on my heart.
I have loved listening to the 4:13 podcast with Jennifer Rothschild every morning on my way to work. One episode she shared this interpretation of Psalm 23 and it has been echoing in my heart and mind for days.
A STUBBORN CALF’S PSALM 23
“The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall want my own way. He will make me lie down in green pastures, but I will keep getting up and wandering off to eat dead grass. He’ll pull me to quiet waters, but I will refuse to drink. He ends up dragging me along right paths and I dig my heels in the whole way. So, when I end up in a dark valley, I am absolutely terrified because I am not sure He is with me. I think He is, but, I am so self-absorbed that all I can see is the dark. His rod and staff don’t comfort me; they drive me crazy and I resent them. He prepares a table before me, but I clamp my jaws and refuse to eat. He anoints my head with oil and I buck and kick the whole time. My cup would overflow if I would just be still, but I am bent on my own way. Amazingly, His goodness and mercy still follow me all the days of my stiffed-necked life and despite myself, I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever … but, by golly, I will choose my own room!”
Anyone else as stubborn as I have been feeling? I want the answers I ask for when I ask for them. I want to figure things out on my own. I want to do it my way. And I want God to bless me! How arrogant am I? God has had to get the staff after me this week and I’m definitely feeling bruised; but my ears are open and my heart is softer to follow his direction.
The author mentioned in one chapter she had to continue fasting for another 80 days to recognize and surrender her addictions, I’m beginning to feel I may need a portion of that. It took me the majority of this fast to truly seek what God wanted accomplished. All I know is I’m tired of resisting Him, so I’m going to try to follow him instead of running ahead.”
Have you truly submitted to God yet in this fast?
